It has been a few weeks since I posted a Weight Watchers Wednesday and now I have gone and changed the title.
As you may have guessed from those two facts, I am not doing so well with Weight Watchers.
Let me explain.
My problem, and why I am overweight, is that I am obsessed with food. It is my drug. It is my peace, my sanctuary, my release from the stresses of life. I think about it too much. I have an unhealthy relationship with food.
I feel like - for me - WW only increases my food obsession. I obsess about points and what I can afford to eat, and what I can’t. I find myself thinking about food even more, and that’s not helping.
In a lot of ways, this is a spiritual issue for me. I am not experiencing my full freedom in Christ if I still need to find refuge in food.
Anyway, I have started a new program. It is faith-based and I think it will better get to the heart of my real problem. The program is 30 days long, so I will report back then how it worked for me. (Obviously, the lifestyle change is ongoing after that.)
In the meantime, I still want to blog weekly with a post focused on body wellness, so I will continue (or start again) to do that.
And of course, I will still post yummy, healthy recipes, too.
I don’t want to just look good. I know I can get there with WW because I did it before. I want to feel good. I want to be free from this obsession with food and the roller coaster of emotional highs and lows that comes with it.
I have to note here, on the plus side, I have not gained anything since the last time I weighed myself even though I stopped tracking points.
Now, here is a recipe from Dr. Andrew Weil. (When my husband and I went on our honeymoon, Dr. Weil had just been at the B&B we stayed at the day before.) It uses real food and has 10 g of protein.
Chocolate Ricotta
Ingredients:
1/2 cup lowfat ricotta cheese
2 tbsp mild honey
2 tbsp cocoa powder
1/2 tsp vanilla
1/2 tsp ground cinnamon
Instructions:
1. Combine all the ingredients in a food processor and process until smooth.
2. Scoop into small dessert dishes and serve.
Nutritional Information:
Makes 2 servings (~ 1/4 cup)
Per serving:
145 calories
3 g total fat (2 g sat)
11 mg cholesterol
24 g carbohydrate
10 g protein
2 g fiber
100 mg sodium